I felt my baby for the first time today!!! It was such a beautiful feeling, and totally unexpected because the ultrasound tech said my placenta was on the front and I probably wouldn't feel anything until much later than other women due at the same time as me. Well, it's quite early really, 15 weeks and 1 day today... but there is NO mistaking that feeling!! I thought that I'd felt jellybean earlier, but that was just gas bubbles hehehehe. It's actually a similar feeling, but in very different parts of the body. Today's movement- DEFINATLY in my uterus. I woke up, I said "Good morning baby, how are you this morning?" and then 'flutter, flutter, twist, twist, flutter' So I said "WHOA! What are you doing in there?" and again he responded with a flutter. Everytime he stopped I would just talk again and for about 30 minutes it went on and on. I'm so happy and so excited. So far the pregnancy has been anything but easy. Those sweet little butterfly flutters made it worth all of this horrible sickness that I've had.

Erik's mom passed away last week, and things have just been sad here, you know?? It's so nice to feel this kind of joy, well, I was going to say again, but to be honest, it's the first time I've ever felt THIS kind of joy.

Shopping for maternity clothes here is a nightmare. We went Sat. and I ended up with one pair of TOTALLY overpriced jeans, but at least they are comfy. So far shirts aren't a big problem, as long as I don't have any kind of formal type thing to go to. I imagine it WILL be a problem in the next few months though, and I'm a little bit worried about it. It seems that dutch women just don't grow to bigger than a size 10 or something????? I know that I've always had a hard enough time finding even normal clothes here that fit me. Finding maternity bottoms isn't going to be a problem I don't think, but the TOPS?????? UH OH!!! I have NO idea where I can find those here. I was already well-endowed BEFORE pregnancy and NOW... well NOW it's just ridiculous and getting more and more ridiculous every day!!! I just have this nightmarish feeling that in about 3 months I'm going to be walking around in a tent everywhere I go!!

Today's the first time I've looked in the mirror and REALLY seen a pregnant woman looking back at me. Until now I've just felt like my stomache was getting a little bit fatter, but for some reason today..... WHOA!! I'm PREGGERS!!! Hehehehe Maybe it's time for some maternity clothes because I've only got about two pairs of pants left that still fit comfortably :)

Wow, what a rough weekend it's been.

On Friday night I had some bleeding. It stopped fairly quickly, and my midwife said that it sounded like it was just a burst blood vessel, and not a big deal, happens to a lot of pregnant women. Then again on Saturday, more bleeding, this time quite heavy and bad. I was scared out of my mind. The midwife said as long as it didn't continue on for very long, to try and not worry, try to relax and take it easy the rest of the weekend, and she would schedule an appt. with OB/GYN at the hospital on Monday for tests to be done to see what was going on.

Okey, so I did my best not to stress out (yeah, right) and today went to the OB/GYN for an investigation. They did another ultrasound, and an internal exam and said YAYYYYYY everything looks just fine!! They couldn't find any reason for the bleeding and said that they were fairly sure that I had a few burst vessels and that it is sometimes just more common in some women than others and I should let them know if there is more bleeding.

Okey, so it ends up that today's exams just brought a little peace of mind and a new picture of my little jellybean :) Oh yeah, and it seems that the baby's growth has caught up a little bit with the original due date. First it was Sept. 20, then Sept. 25 and now Sept. 21... pffffffffffft. I'm just gonna say Sept. 21 because it matches up the best with my own dates. I don't know many ppl who were actually born on their due date anyways... I was almost 6 weeks early.

Here's the new u/s photo!

Yesterday we went for an ultrasound. It was a little disappointing because the midwife couldn't get a clear picture and thought that the baby was a bit small for 11 weeks, but did see a clear heartbeat and movement. Anyway, she made us an appointment in the hospital for this morning to have a trans-vaginal ultrasound. It was the most amazing thing I've ever seen in my life. The baby was moving around so much, and waving his/her arms around and kicking. My husband just sat there laughing, it was beautiful. Anyway, my due date is pushed back a few days now. It was Sept. 20, now it's Sept. 25. Here are the scans for you all to enjoy :)