I've been so down the past few days. I didn't really expect this I guess... I mean, it makes sense with all of the hormone stuff going on I guess. Also it's just been such a stressful week. I lost my job and my mother in law is really sick and in the hospital. I feel like a big whiner, but I just can't help it. I've been sitting here all day just crying and crying and there's just so much to do and I have absolutely no energy to do anything. Everyone keeps saying that things will be better in a few weeks. I hope so. I'm happy about this baby... REALLY happy about it, still I can't seem to dig myself out of this black hole that I'm in.

It will get better, right????

Some information that I just want to write down. I've been writing on paper, planning to get a nice journal, but I just haven't had the chance to yet.

On Jan. 31, 2006 we took the home pregnancy test, which was positive. Two days later, Feb. 2, 2006 we went to the Dr. and got confirmation from him.

It's hard to believe that I've known this for less than two weeks because it seems like my whole world has changed, or at least the whole focus of my world. Even with all of the morning sickness, which has been horrible.... I am SO IN LOVE already. Just the idea that there is this tiny living thing growing inside of me..... I am overcome. I know that there are 6 billion people on this planet, and every one of them has a mother, so it's not really a unique situation I find myself in, but somehow it feels like I am the only person who has ever felt this way in the entire history of the earth.