I feel like I've been a lousy friend of late. I feel pretty horrible about it, especially because so many of you have been such good friends to me. Please know that I really do care and if you need something please just ask me.

I am having problems offering emotional support to other people because my own emotions are still all over the place. I'm not trying to make excuses here, I am just offering an explanation.

Please just know that I'm trying. I'm trying to be a good friend, a good wife, a good daughter, a good sister... I'm trying. I don't always succeed though. It's hard to be all of those things when I'm not even sure who I am anymore. I'm not even always clear on what I myself believe, think and feel and I always feel like my advice to other people just isn't good enough.

It sounds like I'm making excuses, I know it does. *SIGH* I feel like it's all about me, all the time lately. I hate that. I know that you all have problems and sadness and struggles too. I am in no way trying to belittle those things.

If I've hurt you in any way.... if I have failed to give you the support that you would like to have from me.... please forgive me.... please be patient with me.