Friday, April 28, 2006
So the answer to that question that keeps ringing in my head, WHY WHY WHY???? Well, there is no answer. Ricky was perfect and beautiful and I'm glad about that. They also can't find any problems with me, although they do want to do a big blood work up. My dr. basically said he doesn't expect to see anything new from the tests that I will have done on Monday, but he wants to do them all anyway, just in case. They did see signs of infection in the uterus, which could be what made my water break, but he said that the infection is possibly not the cause of my water breaking, but the effect of it. My Dr. was leaning more towards the infection came after my water breaking and not before, because he said it wasn't a bad infection, but only the beginning of an infection. Ok, so I really don't know anything more than I did before. It's a dark, dark day for me. I just wish I could stop the world from turning and make the sun go out. I just want my son back..... I just want this all to have never happened...... WHY?!?!?
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Lisa,
I'm sorry you got no answers today. I know how frightened you were of the appt and that the outcome was exactly as you feared. I hope you will be able to leave the "WHY" alone...don't hurt even more because there was no answer. Feel secure with the knowledge that there was nothing wrong and that you can again mother a child. Feel secure with the knowledge that your son was perfect in his short stay here with you. I can only imagine how hard the "WHY" pushes at you, but try your best not to make it the focus of your world. I'm here to listen, never judge, and always love...take care of yourself my friend. I'm thinking of you as always.
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