Happy Birthday America!

(and Happy Birthday to my brother too!)

Although I'm not there, I still normally celebrate the holiday in some way. Well, this year the time just got away from me. I didn't even REALIZE that today was the 4th of July until yesterday. Oh, where has the time gone?

Well, it's too hot to do anything today anyway. Too hot for a BBQ, too hot to go outside, too hot to even MOVE today.

I had my first appointment with a councilor yesterday. It went REALLY well. I was afraid to go, but I'm glad that I did. After I got home I broke down a bit.... too many emotions brought to the surface during that 30 minute conversation. It wasn't a bad thing though, in fact that little break down is probably just what I needed. Afterwards I fell asleep on the couch just from sheer emotional exhaustion. After a two hour nap I woke feeling refreshed and renewed and ready to face life again. Since then I've been feeling GREAT! I know that I still have some work to do, still have some grieving to do, still have some talking to do BUT the relief that I'm feeling right now is a giant step in the right direction. It was nice having someone to talk and not feeling worried that I might cause hurt feelings or bring up painful subjects.

For the first time in weeks I feel like I'm going to make it! There IS a light at the end of the tunnel. I can breathe again.