The work agency called me this morning to ask if I was available to work or not. I said NOT of course, I just don't feel ready for that at all. I mean, I'm finding that the simple decisions in life are too overwhelming for me at the moment. Things like "what's for dinner?" or "white or wheat bread?" or trying to figure out what my piggies want when they are peeping.... it all just sends me into a complete panic. I guess I should get that under control before I try to work again. It's the third day in a row that someone has called because of something work related, and I just feel like I'm being pressured so much. Maybe working again would be a good distraction, but not yet. When??? I have no idea. My whole world just feels totally upside-down and I don't really know from one minute to the next how I'm going to feel and how I'm going to cope. Still I find myself here trying to make this huge decision about it all. How long before I work again? Would it be better for me to try soon? I don't know, it's all too much to think about right now.